Free Saturdays are Saturdays where no one is in town, no special events are going on, and no major errands to run. Just a empty/free Saturday.
Anyhoo, as I was stating before, I plan tons of things to do on these days (read, clean up, blog, catch up on fav blogs, check out new blogs, study, read, work on business, and catch up on shows I have on Tivo). However today I did hardly any. I just laid in bed (as I am doing now), played on Youtube (damn this great website), watched HGTV, and threw a pity party for myself.
Who was invited to my pity party?
- Wanting my own place.
- Being jealous that an ex is getting married today. Now I do not want him, but I am jealous none the less. It just reminded me that I am a single lady with no candidates at all.
- Feeling fat (even though I know I am NOWHERE near fat, but just bigger than I have ever been) and not doing anything about it.
- Being mad at myself because I feel that I am never satisfied.
- Lastly, having tons of things/ideas/feelings going on in my head that are driving me crazy!
Its 6pm and I have nothing to show for this day. NOTHING!! I am getting tired of wasting away my "free Saturdays", but do not know how to motivate myself.
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2 comments:
*sigh*...I can relate....I hate hearing about good news from people cuz it just makes you more aware of the good news that you dont have to share....I am fat..so I feel it all the time...dont have the motivation to lose the weight plus I'm impatient....and I NEED MY OWN PLACE...living with parents is sooo NOT THE BUSINESS...but thats a whole nother blog for another day
WASTE? Honey I relish those kinda days, who says we always have to be doing something. My thirties have been my introduction to the art of not doing a damn thing! It was hard at first because Imma type A kinda girl, but man I try to make every weekend day one void of decisions and hard thinking.
It doesn't always happen but those days where I can absolutely do nothing but languish are the most cherished. I have even told people I'm not thinking today so don't ask me to do anything that requires more input than a 7 year old can give.
-OG
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